erm.. something really big happen today.. its the splitting of my Cg... its really sad.. the feeling is still there even until now.. i juz feel so painful deep in me.. and i couldnt control myself during Cg and i cried.. i felt so paiseh.. but i juz cant control the tears..

im sure its really good that our Cg had spilt.. like wat sam had said.. we wont grow if we dun split. and i totally agree with it.. but i guess it normal that i will feel so terrible only when the splitting had happen today.. i really miss the Cg now.. its not even 1 day and im beginning to miss the Cg.. haiz..

then we went to play floorball.. i tried to play till im really wear out.. im really tired now.. maybe that is the only way that i can stop myself from feelinng so sad temperory.. i tried to release everything while im playing.. but as im walking home.. the thoughts came back again.. i guess it really gonna take some time to relief my saddness..

actually when i heard Sarah saying why we can just get over the saddness so fast.. and i just smiloe to her.. acting as though i can really get over it in just 1 day.. but actually i cant.. im putting on my mask again.. as i dun really hope to see the Cg feeling so down.

maybe its like wat ben had said.. its just another chapter starting in our life.. among the Cg.. BUT 1 thing that is never new and is gonna exist forever is Under Consturction.. i will nvr forget my dearest Cg...