ok guess.. i have lots of thigns to blog today.. yup.. lots and lots of things.. but i guess i gonna type juz a few and continue if i rmb them tmr..

hasnt been feeling so good since ytd.. i feel ok.. im really ok.. but i just feel so messy inside.. and i couldnt sleep at all ytd.. so woke up early to extend my passport.. then went home to slack and then went church to study.. i guess todae is just a bad day like yongling had said...

im really happy as i manage to finish wat im supose to do..=) but then lots of things happen during dinner and during the study period.. its really bad.. i just hate it when they say.."ya thats your cg not ours." i know they are joking but i just hate it.. why must we mention our cg and their cg.. WE WERE ONCE A CG afterall.. its really terrible.. i know its just a spastic joke but maybe i just cant stand it.. im really sori if u are the 1 that say it today.. it doesnt mean that i hate the ppl that say that...

i feel so uneasy today.. ytd... everyday.. i feel that God is promoting me that somethings is gonna happen.. and everytime when i had this feeling it very accurate.. so i just hate it alot.. i guess.. each 1 of us must really seek God 1st b4 we do anything..

there have been great time where actually hope to help but time after time.. all the things we had asked ppl to do.. we just dont seems to be able to do it.. isnt this ironic.. i tell ppl to cheer up yet.. im not being able to do so.. URGH!!...

i just dun get it.. maybe its bcuz i belong to the emotional group of ppl.. we just get ppl sadness even though it has nth gotta do with us.. and especially when its emotional ppl like me which really thinks alot.. we just cant seems to hide other feelings.. we are always so transparent even though we maybe seems to be so strong on the outside.. its really tough to be always cheerful.. i really envy those ppl who really doesnt have much troubles.. feelng so carefree..

haiz.. i guess. i just cant change wat im really am.. the 1 who is always thinking so deeply and get emotional so easily.. haiz.. i guess emotions is the things that every human has been struggling with.. which also includes me..

ya.. tats all shall continue tmr....


feelings are hard to manages with..
there maybe good feelings
there may also be bad feelings...
but if we just bottled our feelings in ourselves..
eventually its just a breakdown for yourself..
Seek God in whatever we do..
ASK and shall be given..
HIDE and shall be forsaken..
but just rmb.. no matter wat..
God and ur true friends will always be there for u..