okay.. today isnt a good day.. not at all.. haiz.. so many things happen todae.. things that happen right in front of me when i just can't help.. i feel so helpless.. so useless.. at the same time i felt so hurt... torn. tired.. mentally... physically..
(Sarah i guess my patience aint that good after all. rmb what u said that time at coffee shop when i was with richie? u said "mervin. u have a very good patience.")
(Daryl u are right u could just simply relate what goin on in me.. knowing that so many things is bothering me.. so many.. and i really thank you for being so understanding... )


and as i was sharing with benn on the platform todae.. alot of thoughts were goin thought my mind.. and 1 of the thought was that will i actually be able is react properly if i was the 1 failing? i dunno.. im emotional.. i guess it would really effects me alot.. especially when i has gotta do with friends which is more precious then a jewel to me.. or should i say priceless.. indeed its really priceless.. benn. sometimes i really hope my word will encourage u but sometimes the words that i said to u may seems so impressive but sometimes me myself cant even do it hope u wont mind.. anyway i hope our friendship would get even better each day=)

i shall continue the post tmr.. there is some more i want to want but.. im really tired..


when u are down..
i'll try to cheer u up,
when u happy..
im happy for u
but will u ever notice?
i dunno.... i really hope to know