okay. i've finally decided to settle down after roaming around on net. viewing friendster's profile, reading blogs, checking mails and checking out the products that im gonna buy once i got my pay. hahas.

okay. shall start blogging abt hows my week then talk abt what im thinking abt k? hahs. my week has been fine, just that i feel really really tired this few days. just dun understand why when i actually had at least 8hrs of slp. may i just need more SLP! hahas. on the surface i've been working. but acutally im slacking at my workplace. hahs. other than that i did nth else. other then playing maple. which i've finally decided to stop. the REASON that i've stop is simple and yet important. cause it badly and its not advisable to play cause ppl often get addicted to it. but really thank God that i manage to stop playing it even though the temptations of playing with my church friends is there. then another reason that i'm not gonna play anymore is because i used to advise ppl not to play because its witchcraft yet now im playing isnt that ironic right? okay i guess thats all for my week. other that during sat i had floorball and cg.

talking about CG i felt the change of a new year, a new time slot. has really affect alot of ppl. not just in my Cg is guess. erm. i should say the whole youth ministry. okay its fine if u don't agree with me. but i just feels that way. i feel that the whole ministry has become so broken up. including my Cg(correct me if im wrong emily.) it just feels so different to be in my CG now. lots of changes are taking place ever since the new time slot, new sch changes etc. everyone is here, there everywhere.(its not that im blaming everyone for having things on, during sat.) all i can say about how i feel about my Cg now is just empty. okay i guess enough about my Cg.


okay. erm actually i find last sat sermon pretty interesting. and what ever the pastor kenny said is so ture. "As a leader gets higher, the lonelier he get." i agree in a fact that i had experience it in my school or anywhere else. everyone just has a different view on you, just like how they view an alien if they were to see 1. they just stay away from you or probably be beside you but doesnt wants to talk to you at all. yup. this type of feeling just sucks i can say. but on the other hand serving as a leader is still important no matter how hard or how horrible you were to be. anyway i really miss the time as a leader. i guess leading its really a large term. leading can be a form of good and bad. i really admire all the Cg leader and how they make use of their leadership to lead in Cg as a purpose to serve and at the same time to spread God's words to us. as for me i guess my leadership is fading away i guess. i just cant seems to decide on where to lead or where to serve. In BB? or in SFC. im totally lost. maybe its just not the right time to decide i guess. anyway just to afirm that who feels lonely as a leader that all of you are NEVER ALONE!